I am quite shocked to see that I had not posted in over a year and a half. My Trump depression continues and anger is swallowed down with shortbread and buttered bread.
Yet, I weigh myself every Monday morning and though I had lost 5 pounds on my recent trip to Japan, I have managed to gain back 10. So here I am, still a successful maintainer of more than 2/3 of my weight loss, but definitely struggling to get "serious."
All of our lives as overweight people other have talked about "self discipline," "Control," and other such terms that have made all of us feel shitty. Yet, as I sit here, it is of course true, but it is a nuanced true.
The fact that food is required separates this addiction from the alcoholics out there, so it is helpful to separate the functions that food provides.
I think I have said here within these pages, the question to ask yourself, "If you are hungry, eat an apple." If an apple doesn't "cut it" then you are not hungry.
It is useful to feel hungry, it should not be something to fear, there are real people who feel real hungry and we, writers and readers of blogs, are just not them. I feel good when I feel hungry. I like that feeling of stopping, eating a small meal, and continuing on with what I am doing. It is a moment of mindfulness stimulated by that feeling of hunger. It is why I fast on Yom Kippur, it is a day of mindfulness stimulated by the change in routine and the absence of (mindless) eating.
So, today, June 20, 2018, I will eat smaller meals when I am hungry. Let me know how this goes for you. This is not a weight loss call to arms, it is a mindfulness call to arms.
I can only control myself, I cannot control the day to day acts played out on MSNBC that makes me nuts.
Bonnie
